What made you stop being an addict?

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Why don’t Jews regard Jesus as an important teacher or rabbi, if not the Messiah? Putting aside messianic claims, wouldn’t Jesus be one of the most significant Jewish teachers in human history?

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

What is the moral stance on lying? Can you provide examples of when it is appropriate or inappropriate to lie? Does the Bible address this issue?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

What is the process of becoming an Evangelical preacher? Is attending seminary school necessary? How long does it typically take? Is it financially challenging?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Read that again ☝️

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

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Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Just keep trying

Can you explain the difference between being a conservative Republican and a liberal Democrat? Can you provide some examples of their ideologies?

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

This was February 2019.

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I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

Answer me this. These days guys love anal sex right, if you present them with your ass they will happily nail you into the ground. So why do some guys think it's "sissy" to let women stick a finger up their ass?

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Women like what they hear while men like what they see, it that true?

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Is marijuana bad for you?

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

How do you handle family members who ask for handouts?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Even Captain James T. Kirk was trapped in a woman's body. Don't you think he'd support trans people?

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

How do I write a character’s physical description without it feeling unnatural and clunky? I’m able to describe their hair and body relatively easily because my writing puts emphasis on small movements and fidgeting, but I can’t describe faces.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Is Matt Gaetz qualified to be Attorney General of the United States?

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

And I can also talk to them now.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

Why is Eric Clapton so roundly disliked among guitarists?

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

I did it in my administrator's office.

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I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.